Pampering

I've been thinking a lot lately about things have changed over the years.

A few years ago it was nothing for me to give myself a facial, manicure & pedicure each week. Since then its a miracle if you see me with nail polish on.

I try to take care of myself. I get my eye brows waxed once a fortnight & buy Aesop skin care products but the last time I had a facial etc was for my sister's wedding in June 2008.

I suppose the more weight I put on the more I wanted to hide from the world, and the more I didn't feel the need to take better care of myself.

To help my along in my weight loss/new life journey I've decided that I need to set myself one goal a month to achieve.

This month my goal is to give myself a facial, manicure & pedicure once a week. Also, each day I will make sure I moisturise my hands & stop washing the dishes without gloves.

Hopefully the weekly facial will help with my acne too. Even though I always take the time to cleanse, tone & moisture each day, I think my skin will really benefit from a weekly deep clean.

Fingers crossed I achieve my goal this month!!

My Weight Struggle

I've struggled with my weight for as long as I can remember.

I think it started getting worse when I started working. Having money meant that instead of eating the lunch that my Mum made me for school, I could just go to the canteen & buy whatever I wanted. Working in a charcoal chicken shop didnt help much. There was constantly yummy chips & chicken around for me to nibble on. Whenever I would work weekend mornings I would always go home with a bacon & egg roll (extra bacon) with cheese & lots of chips.

I can remember in high school going to the gym with a friend but then going to the nearby bakery afterwards for a sausage roll or pie. Who was I kidding?

Since leaving high school 10 years ago I've managed to pack on nearly 50kg. Realising how out of control things had gotten was a horrible horrible experience. I suppose its true that sometimes you have to hit rock bottom before you can start going up again.

I had been considering lap band surgery on & off for the past few years. I never really understood much about the surgery so never really made a yes or no decision. In March this year I started to seriously consider it again. The catalyst for my decision came one day when I was at my parents place for the weekend. I stepped onto their scales, after several moments trying to convince myself that number I would see wouldnt be that bad I was in shock when the scales showed that I weighed nearly 145kg.

When I got back to work that week I immediately started looking into lap band surgery. I spent weeks trolling the net in search of as much information as I could find. I also went searching for blogs written by people who had had the surgery. I wanted to know what day to day life was like after the surgery. I wanted to know how much their life & eating habits had changed after the surgery.

In July I had lap band surgery.

While it was scary (I had previously never had surgery before), I was also an awakening experience. For the first time in a long time I had taken control of my life. Before I was content to just drift along doing the same thing day in day out. Now I want to live life. I want to do all the things that I've always said I wanted to do but never had the courage to do before.

Its a free new start.....