Fill #2

I had my second fill last Monday. I was excited to have a little bit more added to my band to see if that would give me more of a restriction.
I was excited until I sat waiting for my surgeon to finish with his other patients. For some reason I then became very nervous. It had been 4 weeks since my first fill so I was worried that he wouldnt put more fill in my band.
After waiting for about 10 minutes one of the nurses came out & got me & took me to the scales to be weighed. The scales in my surgeons office are usually about 1kg heavier than mine at home. I had forgotten how much I had weighed at the surgeons office when I had my first fill so I was pleased when the nurse told me I had lost about 2kg since my previous appointment.
After waiting for another 10 minutes it was my turn to see the surgeon. After a quick few questions to see how I was going, I jumped up on the table. The surgeon added another 1.5ml to my band. Now I'm up to 7ml.
I was a bit nervous driving home, I was worried that he had put too much in so I wouldnt be able to keep anything down. Luckily I had a bottle of water in my car from earlier that day so I sipped on that a little to make sure I could swollow properly.
Its now been a week since my second fill. I can definatly notice a difference now. I have to be more careful about what I eat so things dont get stuck but thats a small price to pay for weight loss.
Now I can eat about half of what I was after my first fill. I find it amazing that after eating a meal the size of a bread & butter place that I'm full. Its hard to wrap your head around because I find that my head is saying 'thats not enough food, eat more' but my stomach is saying 'your full, no need to eat more'.
I'm sure I'll get use to it.

My 101 in 1001 List

1. Complete CIT Diploma course in Business Administration

2. Consistently lose weight

3. Ride bike around Lake

4. Get meaningful tattoo when reach weight loss goal

5. Get regular facials

6. Get laser hair removal

7. Whiten teeth

8. Give myself a manicure & pedicure every other week

9. Create a more realistic budget & stick to it

10. Go to the movies alone once every 2 months

11. Clean out car weekly

12. Volunteer at the RSPCA

13. Clean out wardrobe regularly & give old clothes to charity

14. Get up early (6:00) & go walking every other day for a month

15. Read a new book each month

16. Take regular pilates classes

17. Donate money every 6 months to a charity close to my heart

18. Buy at least 4 dresses & wear them regularly.

19. Take a girls trip with friends

20. Go away for the weekend by myself to somewhere I've never been

21. Take Sunday drives to small towns around Canberra

22. Go bushwalking

23. Go camping

24. Go to Tasmania

25. Go on a holiday by myself to Canada/America

26. Keep house tidy

27. Organise cupboards/wardrobes

28. Unpack ALL boxes from moving

29. Go through items in storage area & donate anything no longer needed

30. Buy desk for study

31. Buy curtains for bedrooms

32. Buy plants for each room

33. Keep plants alive

34. Plant herb garden in pots

35. Plant veggie garden in pots

36. Buy fresh flowers each week at local markets

37. Make one new recipe every other week

38. Take a cooking class

39. Make a recipe book

40. Eat at a new restaurant every other month

41. Spend all day in pyjamas watching series re-runs four times per year

42. Blog once per week

43. Blog about completed items on this list

44. Take a picture of each completed item (if possible)

45. Go one month with no unnecessary purchases

46. Save 1001 $1 coins in a Jar

47. Learn to play guitar

48. Buy myself something from Tiffany’s

49. Donate a toy under the Wishing Tree each year

50. Host a High Tea for my girlfriends

51. Go on a Haunted Ghost Walk

52. Get my Tarot cards/Future read

53. Spend a weekend at a health spa

54. Get professionally fitted for a bra

55. Get a completely different hair cut

56. Die my hair a completely different colour

57. Negotiate a pay rise

58. Learn how to apply make up properly

59. Buy myself a designer handbag

60. Buy myself a diamond ring

61. Buy a pair of Jimmy Choo shoes

62. Get an iPhone

63. Learn how to take better photographs of my jewellery

64. Create a professional website for my jewellery

65. Join a dating website

66. Visit a image consultant

67. Buy myself a painting from my favourite artist

68. Get paid for cake decorating

69. Buy a puppy

70. Cook one recipe from EVERY cookbook I own

71. Sleep under the star’s

72. Buy myself a decent DSLR camera

73. Have professional photo’s taken of myself

74. Walk along the beach again

75. Visit Diamond Beach

to be continued..........

A new year

Next week I will turn 28 years old. Usually in the past I have freaked out about my up coming birthdays. I would get really down on myself about how nothing much had really changed in the previous 12 months. Normally I am in the same place as I was at my previous birthday.

On my birthday I use to make promises to myself about how this year is going to be different, how the next 12 months arent going to be like the previous 12 months. No matter how many promises I make to myself or how many goals I set for myself, the next 12 months always end up being the same as the previous.

This year is different. I'm not freaking out about turning 28, knowing that in 2 short years I will be 30. Instead this time I'm celebrating that the next 12 months really will be different. I am loosing weight for the first time in a number of years. I feel differently about life. I'm not so scared to try different things, before my weight would hold me back, but more than anything the fear of not succeeding or not being accepted for my decisions has held me back. Having lapband surgery has taught me that I am in control of my own life & my feelings. No one can make me feel like a failure except for myself. If I want to try something new because it interests me then I should instead of worrying about how other people will react or whether I will look fat doing something.

This time next year I will be a better person. I feel like for the first time I have control over my own life. I'm not just coasting through life hoping that something will happen to put me on the right path. Its up to me to take control & steer myself onto the right path.

I feel so much lighter & more positive than I have for a LONG LONG LONG time.

I like this feeling.