Hard Going

A lot of people think that having lapband surgery is a quick fix. That if you have it done then your just too lazy to lose weight any other way.

Lapband surgery is not a quick fix!!!!!!!

All your over eating demons are still there, the only difference is that you cant eat as much as before. You can still stuff yourself with chocolate & cake if you want. You just cant eat as much as before the surgery.

The past couple of weeks have been a real struggle for me. I'm totally stuffed if I dont have my little routine.

I have become lazy when cooking for myself lately. Usually when I get home from work I'll pop some veggies on the stove to cook while I go get changed & then cook a small piece of chicken or red meat. Lately I've been having take away. Not every day but often enough.

I can't eat as much take away as before my surgery but I can still eat it.

I so desperately want to get back into my routine. I cant afford to eat take away each week for dinner.

Part of my feels like such a failure for slipping back into old habits.

Its been 3 months since my surgery & I've only lost 12kg. On one hand I'm so happy that I've lost some weight, but on the other hand I'm so disappointed that I havent lost more. I thought I would be up to 20kg lost by now.

I have another fill appointment tomorrow. I hope that after the fill tomorrow that I will be at the right point.